Sunday, May 27, 2007

of CAP score

wah lau JY why you must remind me of exam results?
for the past month i totally forgot that just a month ago i sat for exams, pondering over notes of Building Services and not answering the last question for archicon (i do remember that the building was very nice). Heck i had some problem recalling what i did for design too. But what i did remember were the lessons learnt, the hardships that i went, the useful skills I've gained and the priceless knowledge i'll try to treasure, the studio mates and tutors who made the semester a fruitful one. So i refuse to let those grades determine how my semester went and in five years time i promise myself that I'll get more out of university than just a paper qualification.

four sems have past and every sem my need to check results have faded nicely to a comfortable point where i have to be forced into looking at it (points at JY). It used to be fear but now its more like can't be bothered, and its the can't be bothered in a good way. Because this holiday was dedicated to doing things i set aside for too long (travel, running/losing the ponch and photography), its a fulfilling break to get away from slogging it day and night in a office or in front of a computer*. I tell you if this mentality can go on for 3 more years i will gain CAP score enlightenment, when i receive my paper degree, i'll float across the stage and exude some weird aura where every graduate in the audience will suddenly tear and their 4.5 CAP would seem futile. Then when i hold that paper up it'll just disappear along with me and i'll end up in the Sahara desert constructing large solar cells that will save the world while standing next to Buckminister Fuller floating along in the dunes too. The sight will be so magical the tearing audience will start to cry heavily (no no they will not break into some totally wrong scene of an orgy like that movie Perfume : Story of a very twisted wet rock smelling boy) and then cancel their alumni subscription.

*though at present i am technically a research assistant, its a relaxing way to keep myself up to date in academia with the easy schedule.

Maybe i should grade my holidays instead like for EX1011 i.e. long distance running i should get like an A- for finally doing a sub-50 10km (eh! for phat guy thats fast) or GYM1021 at least should get me a B because i can now bench 15kg per hand without panting (sleeveless polo tee bollywood dancer guy's BO helped in my controlled breathing) and a C minus for TC4013, Teochew classes i get from talking to grandma more often these days (which is the surprise gain for the holidays.....wah eh teochew zhai boh?). Those are much better to modules to take.

so even if you did well or not, don't let the grades spoil your holidays. Don't even let lousy grades inspire you to study harder, such promises based on mere digits hold weak foundations, instead study harder because you want to. Because you want to be a better architect, because you love the subject, because you want to be more than just a degree holder, after that then your cap score will settle itself so you don;t have to worry.

I bet you're wondering where I'm going with this.
Well, so am I. i love mindless Sundays

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

nice :)

11:29 PM, June 12, 2007  

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